...Happy Birthday...
1:13 PM
I woke up this morning 33 years young!
I had my mind set on some iced coffee, my devotional, and some silence!
Blessed be, all 3 of my kiddos slept past 7am and I got my wish.
As I went through my morning routine I had a song in my heart.
I kept finding myself singing the verse over and over.
You all might know by now about me and my songs.
I like having a soundtrack.
I think every season of our life could be summed up in the right song.
:)
So I began thinking about this past year.
Where I was last October.
Where I am now.
There has been significant change.
.growth.
.clarity.
.surrender.
.freedom.
I began to pray.
I know my journey of restoration
is my testimony.
There isn't a step I've taken
in which the Lord hasn't
carried me.
I felt like this birthday could possibly be more significant than those of the past.
I can't put into words what that means exactly....
However, I know it is because I finally surrendered.
I've always been under the impression that I struggle
(weight, depression, self-doubt, etc.)
because I am weak and
it was my job to fix things.
Then I'd grow frustrated and give up when
nothing changed.
This time.
This time, I know I am weak.
The shift happened when I realized that is OK.
My strength comes from the Lord who is
"my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and he helps me.
My heart leaps for joy,
and with my song I praise him."
My heart leaps for joy,
and with my song I praise him."
Psalm 28:7
As a teenager I had this verse hanging on my wall..and I come back to it often.
"The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,
my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."
my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."
Psalm 18:1-2
I'm excited to see where the Lord leads me throughout this next year.
My prayer is....
I will continue to press into Him, and trust that His plans are good.
That I can continue to come alive.
For the opportunity to share my story of restoration and transformation
with anyone else who feels stuck.
I want my life to be the proof of His love.
I have been allowed the incredible opportunity to be involved in a ministry for moms.
When I received the curriculum and began reading I was blown away by the handiwork of Christ.
Our theme was all about FREEDOM.
.FREE INDEED.
This is an excerpt from our curriculum:
"That is why this year, we choose wild, unexpected freedom; the kind that brings more laughter and less worry, more contentment and less hustle. Freedom that is so contagious, the people around us are compelled toward their own liberation.
It is a fact that freedom is contagious. That is why we are choosing to go first in order to spark a revolution of women who are choosing freedom over fear. Going first is about being courageous enough to take steps before you are ready, to share the details of your journey, to extend invitations and conquer fears, and lead the way for friends and kids and family. In fact, one of the best ways to advocate for others’ freedom is to go first ourselves, and then we can share with courage and honesty because we have found the keys of freedom. We will go first so that we can set other captives free."
Exactly. What. I need.Where. I. Am. At.
Our scripture for the year reads:
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor, he has sent me to proclaim release to the captives, and recovery of sight to the blind, to set free those who are oppressed, to proclaim the favorable year of the Lord. -Luke 4:18-19
I promise I don't have it ALL figured out.
There are still days I doubt and struggles are real.
However, I'm no longer a slave to fear.
I trust that even in the darkest hours there is joy in the morning!
I'm ready.
#slayingdragons #unfinished #fearless #comeback
I'll leave you with a little song in your heart...
FREE INDEED JJ Heller
On the days, when I'm stuck in the mud
When I don't, feel worthy of love
With the weight, of the world on my back
I'm never alone, remind me of that
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I'm coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
I work hard, but the harder I try
I only fall, farther behind
I'm done with the game, I've kicked of my shoes
With you by my side, how can I lose?
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I'm coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
If You have set me free
Then I am free indeed
If You have set me free
Then I am free indeed
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I'm coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I'm coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
Exactly. What. I need.Where. I. Am. At.
Our scripture for the year reads:
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor, he has sent me to proclaim release to the captives, and recovery of sight to the blind, to set free those who are oppressed, to proclaim the favorable year of the Lord. -Luke 4:18-19
I celebrated the day with my girls serenading me with a cute "Happy Birthday Mommy," an hour of yoga, flowers, sweet surprises, and my Healthy U 9 month evaluations!
I promise I don't have it ALL figured out.
There are still days I doubt and struggles are real.
However, I'm no longer a slave to fear.
I trust that even in the darkest hours there is joy in the morning!
I'm ready.
#slayingdragons #unfinished #fearless #comeback
I'll leave you with a little song in your heart...
FREE INDEED JJ Heller
On the days, when I'm stuck in the mud
When I don't, feel worthy of love
With the weight, of the world on my back
I'm never alone, remind me of that
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I'm coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
I work hard, but the harder I try
I only fall, farther behind
I'm done with the game, I've kicked of my shoes
With you by my side, how can I lose?
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I'm coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
If You have set me free
Then I am free indeed
If You have set me free
Then I am free indeed
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I'm coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am wild as a wave crashing into the sea
I'm coming alive with each breath that I breathe
I believe, I am free
I am free indeed
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